REVOlution!

I'm so glad that I get to join the REVOLUTION this year!
It sounds like something big and hard, but in fact it's the opposite..
Revolution sounds like bringing a big change..
For the matter of fact, it is, but we start small.. :)

The event was refreshing, I should say?
Listening to the stories of how youths did a change in schools and colleges really moved me..
I kept questioning myself if I would have such a big faith like them..
I was afraid because I never thought I do..
However, I had this feeling that kept asking me to do something about it..
I always wanted to do something, something small will do..

Honestly, I've been low in my spiritual life..
I can clearly see myself at the borderline, it felt like I might just cross the line and join the secular world..
But I didn't know what to do, I only kept going to church and fellowships, sometimes I don't even feel like going..

On second night of REVO, a brother in Christ that I just knew gave me this verses:

14 For all who are being led by the Spirit of God, these are sons of God.
15 For you have not received a spirit of slavery leading to fear again, but you have received a spirit of adoption as sons by which we cry out, 'Abba! Father!'
16 The Spirit Himself testifies with our spirit that we are the children of God,

- Romans 8:14-16 [NASB]

I told him that I've been low and he said that he had this feeling to share this verses..

I guess this might be God's way of reminding me that I am His daughter..

Well, I am His daughter, how could I not do something for Him?

How could I not be confident for He gave me so much?

How could I not communicate with Him?

So, I signed up for REVO, we formed a new group..

To keep the fire burning, we started meeting up the following week, which was last week..

It was hard to come up with a common slot that everyone is okay with, so we decided to have our prayer meeting on Monday morning!

7am, it is not an easy task, for a person who needs a lot of sleep like me..

It requires commitment and dedication.. xD

We didn't know what to do, but we started by blessing our house mates..

On Saturday, I bought egg tarts for my house mates on my floor..

I wrote a note for each of them with Bible verses..

It required a lot of courage, honestly..

What happened were amazing!

A small story to add in before the amazing things happened:

The cleaning auntie came that afternoon (Saturday)..

It was raining so heavily that she couldn't go back..

I wanted to give her a cup of drink, so I made honey and gave it to her to thank her..

We started talking, and I happened to know that she's looking to buy a second hand e-bike..

My friend's friend is selling, so I told her, however, her budget is limited..

So after we talked, I told this to our REVO group..

We started searching for her.. and I asked my friend if she could lower the price..

By God's grace, she said yes, but it was still too high..

So we decided to collect some donations to help the auntie..

It was so amazing that within the time in a day, we got more than we need!

We believe God's working..

By the end of the month, we believe we can help the auntie to get the e-bike! :D

(All this actually happened in about 4 days!)

So, back to the egg tarts..

After talking to the auntie, I went upstairs to prepare to go to church later..

My friend Whatsapp-ed me, showing a photo of the egg tart and my note, asking if it was me..

I started laughing, it turned out that one of my house mates is her course mate.

She was delighted to receive my egg tart although she didn't seem to show it..

This is the 1st..

At night, after I came back home, I found my container in front of my door, with nougats in it attached with a note..

It was from another house mate that I never talked to, she wasn't home so I left the egg tart in front of her door..

The joy was indescribable!

This is the 2nd..

The next day was Sunday..

I asked Rose out to check out a printer that we are thinking to buy..

When I wanted to go out, I found a note on my door..

Another house mate of mine wanted to offer me watermelons in return for my egg tart!

And she left her phone number.. :D

And this is the 3rd..

Thinking of these things puts a smile on my face..

God is so amazing!

He works in mysterious ways..

I wish I could do more to bring love to others, just by some little acts of kindness or caring..

This are the verses that the pastor used to encourage us to step up for Jesus:

Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you.

- Deuteronomy 31:6 [NIV]

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.

- Joshua 1:9 [NIV]

BE STRONG AND COURAGEOUS! 

Show Appreciation

I always have this thing about thanking people..
Especially cleaners for our hostels..
Here is what touched me that day..

That morning, I was just going out to my friend's place and I was holding a bag of bananas..
The cleaner was there sweeping the stairs..
She said: "Makan pisang saja ke?"
I replied: "Tak ade lah, ada makan lain juga"
Then she said: "I tau. Kidding je"
I laughed and said: "Thank you ya~"
And so I went off..

I only came back until afternoon at past three o'clock as I had class after going to my friend's place..
And I found the cloth I put in front of my door to block cockroaches and as doormat was nicely folded..
(FYI, I didn't fold the cloth and only put there very simply and it was kind of a mess.. I'm a lazy person, so, yea.. haha)
So, yea, I was touched..
You can say it was her job to clean things up, but I'm quite sure she came before but did nothing about it (but I've never seen her before due to my classes)..

I think, maybe she felt appreciated and helped me to fold my "doormat"..
I hope it was the case..
I hope she felt appreciated..
I hope maybe I made her day..
Cos' she made mine too..

This simple act means so much..

A lot of times, I fear that I take things for granted..
So, I always hope I do not miss to thank people in my life that have done good to me..
No matter how small the matters are..

Show appreciation, it is meaningful to both the thanks giver and the receiver..
It makes the world better too!
I thank God for the ability to show gratitude and appreciation.. :)

认识自己 Knowing oneself

这个学期又参加了Peer Helping Program (PHP),
为什么说又呢？
因为原本在还没来金宝之前就已经参加了两个课程，
但是显然那里的辅导员少给我们做了该做的作业，
而且时隔一年，我们都忘得差不多了，就重新再来吧！

现在上到第三个环节了，不过我就从头开始讲吧

第一个环节，
就自我介绍，跟大家认识熟悉一下
虽然都是朋友，其实很多也是这个学期才开始熟络的

第二个环节，(比较多重点在这里)
这个环节是自我探索，
辅导员要求我们在辅导室里选三样我们觉得喜欢或者是觉得跟自己有联系玩物
我选了那天一进去就一直抓在手上的玩具枪、开始前和朋友拍照带的晚宴式的黑色面具和一只神奇宝贝（Marill）
之后，辅导员, Ms. Mel 要求我们解释选它们的原因
从大家的分享，学习了很多，对朋友有了很多认识

我的解释（大概）：
枪
 - 要保护自己，我需要安全感
 - 自己是个直率的人
 - 虽是保护，但有时候可能会伤害到别人
黑色面具
 - 喜欢黑色，黑色有种神秘感，
 - 面具的功用就是要遮蔽自己，别人看不见；自己仍能看见
 - 因为直率，总觉得很容易被人看透，所以想把一部分的自己隐藏起来
 - 那面具很美啊
神奇宝贝
 - 可爱 （主因）
 - 是个防守能力强的宝贝

解释完了，Ms Mel让我们把玩物根据喜好排好，
我把Marill放在面具后面，枪在旁边

Ms. Mel 对我的见解：
我保护自己而非防守
我想让别人了解，但是又有保留，像只开了一扇窗，只让人探头看却看不完全部
说，其实我有可爱的一面 （-.-）只是不一定让人看见
她说我像洋葱.. (O.O) 需要人一层一层去剥开，但前提是我让他们这么做
说，会这么保护自己是因为非常害怕受到伤害
她说看到我就让她想到 - 复杂

我不解啊
我一直以为自己是个简单的人
至少我想要简单吧
其他的，算还蛮正确的
不过为此，我纠结了差不多一个星期呢

需要改变，但我不知道如何

第三个环节
Ms. Mel 让我们画心目中的英雄
真的想不到了，除了自己，我只想到耶稣了，
所以我画了十字架，说明了主的大爱，还有其他的
蛮开心，可以在朋友面前说明自己跟耶稣的关系
又更认识朋友了，感恩

我总有种PHP过后我们会变成好朋友的感觉
希望能成真....

1st of April

1st of April
April Fool

Doesn't seem to be any different to me..
People would pull pranks on their friends and all..
Somehow, all my friends are too "serious" to actually do things like that..
Should I be happy or not? Haha!

As fun as it sounds, I had a rather serious day..
Settled two presentations today, which require a lot of "seriousness"..

I don't post a lot so, sometimes I tend to "compensate" by posting a few updates in a time.. Haha!
As I mentioned, my good friend got a boyfriend!
And I'm actually quite close with both of them.. Yea, so that's kind of a new experience..
And as it happens, I'm starting to think a lot about relationships..
With no conclusions, of course..

I would say I'm not ready for a relationship, still.. (Have been single the whole time.. xD)
However, at the same time, kinda tired of being alone, taking care of myself, being independent..
Especially when you're away from home and family..
I don't want my family to worry about me, so, always keeping things to myself..
I guess all who are away from home would understand this..
And I know, this is a stage in life, a process that all of us have to go through..

I'll be strong and go through it by myself..
I know I'm strong enough.. :)

Philosophy 101

Do people really change?
Are those changes permanent or temporary?

Sometimes, you'll find that people do change..
I'm not so sure if those changes are permanent though..
However, the core will never change.. That's for sure..

I'm getting more and more comfortable with things as it is now..
I've started not to like changes.. Not major ones, like friends, lifestyle..
There are always times when we have to change as the environment changes or the people around us change..
As all humans do, I need time to adapt to those changes..
I used to be highly adaptive, I still am..
It's just that I can get used to things with my behaviours, my thoughts need more time..

I wonder though..
Why would people change?
Or specifically, I'm asking, why would people change when they get a partner?

I'm experiencing the change of a good friend recently..
The changes are big..
I'm surprised and not so surprised at the same time..

Then I wonder,
will I change that much when I get a partner?
I want to say I won't.. But I'm not sure..
Who knows about the future, right?
Only God knows..

Therefore, I shall continue to observe their behaviours..
That's what a psychologist does, right?
As a future psychologist, I should start practicing.. *wink*

Just some random thoughts..
It has been sometime since I updated..
Been working on assignments like there's no tomorrow..
Finally there's time to rest..
Final exams are coming though..
Guess I just can't relax for so much now.. *sigh*

[I can do everything through Him who gives me strength.] - Philippians 4:13