I don't know why

Went to a meeting that day..... Moody, suddenly......
Not in the mood to talk......Not even to nod nor shake my head....
That's a re-election...... I wanted to be "PR" or "Secretary", actually.....
But I said nothing when the election is "in the progress"......
At last, the position I wanted were taken.....
The positions left is the one who in charge of the devotion things & the finance one......
I'm not very interested in those two, honestly.......
I almost got the position of the devotion one.....
Before that decision is made, I went out.....
But I can still hear they were talking about the room......
Everyone noticed that I was unusual......
E knew what I wanted & what position that I didn't have the burden......
She told them about I don't really want what I got......
Then, she "sacrificed" herself n exchange her position with me..... That is what she didn't expect too!!!
Then, when I went back to the room..... The position is changed......

At last, they asked we had any objections or wanted to change the position we got.....
I said I wanted to change..... They then asked the "secretary" if she's willing to change with me....
She is good.... She said she'll accept whatever position she got.....
In the end, she changed with me......
I got what I wanted...... But I'm not that happy as I expect before the meeting.....
I think that I'm selfish.... & made two people lost what they wanted or what they should be having.....

I feel bad...... Until now.....

I'm guilty..... & I'm sorry for what I've done...... My selfishness........

Sorry..........

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