It's 2013

Well, just posted in mandarin..

I'm close to 18 now..

Yea.. Graduated from high school..
Got my SPM result slip..
It's a good result, but not good enough.. For me..

I've always wanted to glorify God..
I wanted to prove that I can do it..
With God, I can do it..
Being the only one to take BK in my school.. I'm proud..
Taking Bible Knowledge is not a burden..
I hoped to score in BK..
But I didn't..
And I was disappointed..
But I never regretted.. I'm still proud..

People are saying I'm good..
But, I'm the only one that knows, I'm not..
Totally not..

A few days before getting the result slip, I was still in the National Service camp..
It's Bumimas, Sibujaya in Sibu..
Great memories there..
I've met great friends..

It is really like what people said..
From the beginning, I don't want to be there..
Wanted to go home so much that I cried for a few times..
For a not so sentimental person like me, crying for like 3 times is kinda many..

I felt so alone..
Because didn't meet some people that I think that can really share my happiness and sadness..
I thank God that it didn't last very long until I found some friends of my kind..
We've really been through a lot..
Happiness, sadness, loneliness, sickness and all..
I want to thank my friends there too..
Thanks for being my friends.. & being with me when I need them..

Our time there is shorter than the others.. It's only 2 months and a half..
But I'm glad I came..
Friends, you'll always be in my mind..
I'll cherish the sweet and precious memories..

People said we'll wish to stay longer..
For me, I only wished I could stay with them longer..

After I'm back, I really miss the times in there..
Because, it is really hakuna matata..
Once I'm out, I need to worry about my future and all..
And making decisions for my future is so hard..
Making decisions like, where to go and what course to take are life-changing decisions..
Once you made your choice, it's like there's no turning back..
Right or wrong, you'll have to deal with it..

Right, you face all the problems and tests that come along..
Wrong, you waste your time and go to those that are right..

And I'm so emotional these days..
Hmm.. What to do?

Pray to the Almighty God and He'll lend His hands..
Praise to the Lord that He is gracious, merciful and full of love..
Jesus, help me to love you more.. <3